sweet

piece of self-indulgence called 'Natal Tart'

Your eyes glaze over as she talks about your sun sign and your moon sign and how your moon sign is the subconscious pieces of you

little bits here and there that nag at you, making their presence very known

like cookie crumbs in bed sheets
pebble in your boot

she notices that you are not interested

she chooses to keep talking but she changes the tempo

sounds a little more sad, talks a little faster

'perhaps its her moon sign rearing itself in the midst of insecurity' is what you would think sarcastically if you were actually paying attention.

Her sun is Sagittarius – so - fire

Her heart feels really big and really heavy to boot, when she laughs she imagines it filling up the whole room

She trips and falls and drop things a lot all while smiling because she genuinely loves being the clown

a hunter without a destination

She is blunt and confrontational – get it all out in the open

She'll tell you whatever is going on in her brain

Often times she wishes she could just open up her chest and let you take a look for yourself

it would be easier that way

sometimes her mouth trips her up when the words kind of just spiral out and its never quite what she means.

if only you could scratch the surface of her to reveal that energy that lives right below the flesh – yellow and violet I think

but scratch-n-sniff stickers are very different from her, strangely enough.
Sometimes when she finds herself in a group singing happy birthday to someone, she lowers her own voice so that she can pin point each individual's singing and this makes her feel warm and comforted. Unity.

Her moon is in Capricorn so – earth

She has a strong will and determination

but no where to go with it (See Sagittarius*)

Sometimes she opens herself up so so so big that she gets hurt (she's not surprised, she knows this is part of it)

and her moon steps in and she becomes a lil cold and distant and calculated

Not her proudest time nor most comfortable time

always always after she's been hurt, never before or during.

Capricorns are strong and realistic and they help keep our feet on the ground without forcing us to take our head out of the clouds.

Her rising is Pisces – so – water

All she really deep down cares about is how she affects other people, how they feel, how they communicate, how we can function as a well-to-do well-oiled-machine

she'll reach into her chest and grab her throbbing heart and put it in your two hands, though you probably wont want it – not quite like that (She's still learning)

and when you dont offer yours in return

She will genuinely understand

because she's traced that possibility already with the tip of her finger, slowly and delicately and decided to jump in anyway.. (that's a Jupiter gal for ya)

And somehow, even though she could see it all before it happened, she'll still kind of stand there and slump and cry a little and then cry a lot and then she'll just sit there and do nothing and perhaps eventually she'll just

take her heart back and kind of awkwardly squish it back into that empty chest cavity

might have to use her thumbs a little to make sure it all fits

and she'll start to fall and float simultaneously;

like this reoccurring dream she used to have when she was 6 where she would be falling down a well and as she got closer to the bottom she could see it more clearly and as she started to panic she would fall faster and faster and then right before she would hit the bottom, naturally, she'd wake up. Panting and sweaty and her little brain would wonder why..

so just like that, she'll fall and float and stop and run and lay down 

but the valiant and gregarious centaur always really wins in the end

and he picks her up and places her on the tip of one of his very sharp arrows and he'll aim and shoot her way way high up in the sky

and the descent will be scary and painful but certainly fun.

But we're not thinking of where we're going.

We're just going and going and going and picking up flowers along the way.